Brian and I have been feeling like we have hit a wall and spent most of the weekend resting and spending time together. It is amazing how you can run on simply adrenaline for three months.
I had lunch with my Mother, Aunt and Grandmother on Friday and it occurred to me after eating and being barely able to keep my eyes open that I think that was the first normal meal I had eaten in a long time.
I decided then and there that everything can wait... sure I have a ton of laundry, a messy house, heck I even have christmas decorations that still need put away!! But I put down my to do list and and focused on what I needed most, Rest.
Brian is doing ok and it is still hard for him to talk about everything that happened. I continue to let him know that I am here for him and at times he opens up.
My Mother in Law is still in a care center receiving therapy for her leg. We have a Dr's appointment for her on thursday and hopefully she will be cleared to apply weight to her broken leg and return home with a care nurse.
To us our New Year started out very differently than we expected, honestly I have no idea where the time went. Our focus was on family and being there in their time of need. I wouldn't change a thing and I feel good in knowing that we made every effort to be apart of my father in laws last days.
Each day is a gift and through everything I have learned to cherish the moments in life, the simple things that happen each day that can go unnoticed in our busy lives.
I have learned to give yourself to others but to find a balance as well. You can not give your best self unless you take care of you too.
It's OK to give yourself a break sometimes. Rest is just as important to the success of our health and life!
~ Sara Stakeley